you can lose almost anything except for your belief

Sometimes in my life,I fell very tired to believe and want to leave everything behind my back.I want to live somewhere that no one can't find me and let thing goes on like it has to be. That's all I want but I don't do it because running is not the good way. I find the belief to live and pass the hard time. It's better.So that belief is very important,especial belief yourself. Have you ever lost your belief? In the past,I had.
I was born in a poor family. My parents had to work very hand to take care of our life. when I was a child, I was sooner aware that so I tried my best in my studying. I learned very well. My parents were proud of me.When I graduated high school, I decided to register Economic University. I thought I would have chance to find a good job and make our living better if I graduated this school. At the contest, I was not nervous ,even I was so confident with my task. I thought I couldn't failed. I claimed with my parents:" I did it very well!"
However,the real life did not like your dream. I failed. I was so shock. I could not believe in my ears and my eyes. I could not used any words to describe my emotion at that moment.I just could see the sorrow in my parents's eyes. They were so disappointed but they did not shout me any words. I lost belief in everything, especially in myself. I hate myself.I wondered:" What I did?"" How this happened to me?" I stayed in my room all day and did not go to outside. I cried and I wished tears could bring everything out of me. I closed my eyes and wished when I opened it, all of this was a dream. The dream I never wanted to have.
I thought it was the and of my life. I could not make my parents upset about me. So after being room 4 days, I decided to leave my home.At the midnight, when my parents and my brothers were sleeping, I went. I tried to run out of everything, find a solution for me. I went to the beach and had terrible idea in my mind. I sit in front of the sea and saw the waves clap into the shore. I wondered what would happened if I go into sea and never com back. My head was emptiness.
The wind blew and brought cold. It seemed to touch inside my heart. No one was here, just the sea and I. And when I was looking waves, I saw a small crab that were called Da Trang. He tried to bring sands to fill the sea." How can he fill the ocean?""He is so silly!". But after that I racognize myself that I was silly,too. He was just a small animal but he had great belief. He belived that he could fill the sea.He belived and he had a motivation to live, he thought and he did. And me, a human that had thinking,how I could not think and do like Da Trang even though it was the 1 time.
I realized what I should do. I took a deep breath and ran as fast as I could to my house. My parents woke up. I ran to hug them deeply.I said that I would registered next year.
Now, I am finishing my last studying at Economic University. I take my belief back and I will never lose it again. I think when you still believe, everything can become true and If you lose it, you'll lose many things.so keep your belief in everything,especial in yourself.